I’m loving Thailand. I really am. At no point have I wished I wasn’t travelling solo, or wanted to go home since that one anti-climatic night on Khao San Road. That was a bummer. I keep thinking, where am I going to go next? Then I remember that I have to go and do my university course first. I hope! Even bigger bummer. There’s always holidays, right?
These last two days have been some of my best so far. In this trip, and in my life. Yesterday, I did the bike circuit around Pai with a “biker gang” of eleven others which started out with six but got better each time we added people. It was so social and such fun, and though quite a tiring day, I absolutely loved it! We visited some waterfalls and an elephant camp, and seeing the area around Pai from the bikes was brilliant.
And today, I got back on the bike – a 115cc Honda Scoopi – alone, and went even further out to Pai’s best kept secret – another hot spring which didn’t require payment of an entry fee! The ride through the mountains was beautiful and I got to see the sun set behind them whilst leaning on my bike and appreciating just how lucky I am… And I was as happy with a large group as I am when it’s just me and a dirt track going who knows where.
I was thinking, it doesn’t get better than this. Landscape zooming by, I’m smiling madly as the wind rushes through my hair (of course, I mean through the holes in my helmet). I’m not waiting for anyone, nobody is waiting for me. I don’t have to do anything. I have no idea where I’ll be tomorrow, or what I’ll eat, or where I’ll sleep.
This is what I want my life to be. I want to be able to say that my one greatest love affair is with the road (we don’t talk about the other one), because the road will never tell you this isn’t going to work or you’re not enough. The road doesn’t care how much you weigh, or where you went to school, or who you’ve loved, or who you were last week.The road will understand when you need to leave it for the stability of a restful few days, but it will always be there to welcome you home.
Life is about more than sitting in a lecture hall zoning out because you’re bored and you want to be anywhere else but here, or waiting for some blue-eyed boy to say he loves you back, or crying when he doesn’t, or starving yourself to be beautiful, or wilting when life doesn’t go to plan. Life is about being happy and free for as long as you can.
I wish I could live like this forever.